Mar 20, 2013

too old to handle kids?

I'm back! I'm brokenhearted, not with love life but because of my cousin.

I got home a while ago, saw ripe bananas in out kitchen and I was so happy, excited , cloud 9! I've always love ripe bananas but before getting one, my 6 yrs old cousin said , "that's ours!".

I was like--- whaaaaaaaaaat? and she answer again "that's ours!"
I thought I wasn't hearing hear well, and she repeats "that's ours and we're going to make it fan bananas"
I couldn't understand what I felt that very moment. I wanted to get mad but controlled myself since she was a kid. The banana thing wasn't hurtful, it's the fact that I couldn't defend myself because I'm dealing with a kid.
I was so silent and till now feeling hurt inside.

My aunt with her 2 girls (10 and 6 years old) stayed since mid last year. My aunt had a problem with her husband being battered so they decided to moved out. Having difficulties financially when the 2 older sisters left them, my aunt and the 2 little ones stayed with us. They were spoiled. Every food they could see at our kitchen, they could eat. Every food I bring, I see to it they could taste it. In short, I never complained and sure I've given them so muchhhhhhhhhhhh.

So it was hurtful tonight. I didn't wanna look at her. I was wondering, of how many months they were with us and they never saw any from our family member being greedy. I was curious how that little girl didn't notice that giving was always a priority in our house. Ahhh. pissed me off. Now am not even sure if I could do some online stuffs today.

Last night I lost internet connection. I was in the middle of editing my squidoo article. But am glad am back today to update.