Hello everyone. I'm not that awesome but I love writing about my feelings. Be it on poems, songs or just plane paragraphs.
I submitter this poem last August 04, 2008 on Poemhunter.com. I'm sure I wrote about this 2004-2005, yeah it was a year-long poem and the characters in it, I choose to keep confidential. Hahaha :))
I'm wOrth waiting for...
I say life is so unfair
Because I love someone
who doesn't care
He’s been on my mind every hour, everyday
And just close to him
is where I want to stay
I have never felt this way before
And seeing him always makes me love him more
'He’s so insensitive';
'He’s such a dumb'
But because of him
I have become a numb
My friends tell me
he doesn't deserve me
And that he’s just a nothing,
a nobody maybe
These words got stuck inside my mind
Yet still I admire him with reasons I can’t find
I remember all these years
that passed
So now I truly disagree with
'1st impression never lasts'
For long ago
he’s just a silly friend
But look at me now with heartaches so hard to mend
Was it because he’s very nice?
Or maybe just
of his twinkling eyes?
Could also be his gentle voice?
That makes me say,
'He is my choice! ”
Another maybe
is his loving gesture
That made me felt
I’m a special treasure
But honestly I really don’t know
The innermost reason
why I like him so
As far as I can remember
it happened really fast
For just a night,
how flattering it was
That time he’s just
my old time pal
And I for him was a simple gal
I just stayed with him
to talk for a while
But looks like I got drown
with his crazy smile
Next thing indeed was a history
That I had even wrote on my diary
I’m supposed only
to comfort him
Because I guess that’s his saddest night
that I've ever seen
I cheered him up
to ease his pain
Shame on me now,
the one in vain
At first I thought
I was just confused
With this feeling inside
that is about to boost
I said that I
just pity him so bad
Now falling for him was the hardest thing I had
Can’t believe that liking him would be possible
I think about him
above almost all
All the stupid favors
he had asked me to do
Are done at my pleasure
just for him to like me too
But how come I’m not
treated the same?
Is there something about me
he is to be ashamed?
Or still the reason is
his former love,
Which still brings him back
to the feelings they have?
I get jealous
when they’re together
Although I know
they are official lovers
What pain it brings
when they are happy
Though I’m the one who teases them with a heart
crying silently
How joyous I am
when they broke up
All those following days,
I laugh and laugh
Then a hope grew deep inside my heart
That finally in his busy life
I’ll have a part
Still I was treated just the same
And if ever I’ll be his girl would be just a game
Meaning, he is truly a fool
Doesn't he know the golden rule?
I tried to ignore
the feeling inside
When I see him comes
I try to hide
Still this move doesn't help a lot
For I can’t resist
the feeling of craving I got
Another thing that bothers me again
Is that if he and his ex
are really insane
After all the hates
and the cursing words
Their back to the love scene
that make me bored
Their back again to give me pain
Yet I’m the only one
who is to be blame
For nobody knows what I’m going through
That I get hurt to see those two
Until now I promised to treat them right
As sweet as possible
just not to start a fight
A ready-to-listen- friend to the girl I envy
And for the guy I love,
a comforting -dependable- martyr,
a 'girlfriend wannabe' maybe
I don’t know when this sacrifice would last
I just want to let
the heavy days move fast
Maybe by that
I’ll easily move on
And just try to make our relationship as FRIENDS
be strong
Would you now agree?
I was treated wrong
I’m taken for granted
by the one I long
I have loved him so
with all honesty
But what had happened to me now was all but a misery
Now I want to be hurt no more
Because I have this few words for you boy,
'I’m worth waiting for..
Wrote this November 26, 2008 on an old personal blog of mine.
So close and yet so far (poem)
You were someone close to me before
But now all has changed and you've closed your door.
All these years that passed you've remained special for me.
I think I'm special for you too, but only in my fantasy.
We found ways to flee from each other
Took different roads just to make things better
We never heard of our deeds anymore
And thought that it was the end of this so called endeavor
But now it seemed we have to start a new beginning
I’m back to the place that we are both sharing
How hard I try not to consume spaces of you
But it didn't help because I am required to do
We even had some silly coincident
Wearing same color of t-shirts, oh! Let me say accident
You might think I planned every single day it happened
I would just say a big NO, I never intended
You became light and smooth lately
And makes me wonder if it’s reality
You even greeted me goodbye, oh what a surprised!
That reached for a whole long week for me to realize
That night I haven’t given an answer
Pity me, I was in shocked, would that matter?
From that day on, you thought I was proud and unentertaining
But to tell you the truth, that night gave me a new meaning
Now, I regret of not responding to your goodbye
I always wanted that to happen even for just a try
You’re back to your old, boring look today
Was that my fault? That I had nothing to say?
I see you around, here there and everywhere
You pass my way like a total stranger
I look at you not looking at me
Give me a short glimpse, when will that be?
You’re so close to touch
But so far to feel, ouch!
Or should I say, so close and yet so far
To have you back is what I’ll wish on a shooting star.
Published this song December 30, 2008 on my old personal blog but am sure I wrote this when I was staying my my brother and sis-in-law at Marbel. I was inspired by the Pinoy Dream Academy musical show, so I composed a song.
Aamin Din Ako
'Di mo man sabihin
Alam kong ako pa rin
Nilalaman ng puso't damdamin
Ewan ko ba kung ba't ayaw aminin
Refrain 1:
Natatakot ka ba?
Na di ko pakinggan
O nahihiya
Sa 'yong mga kaibigan
CHorUs:
Umamin ka
Na mahal mo pa ako
Gawin mo na ang dapat at magpakatotoo
Umamin na
Na ako sa puso mo
Wag ka ng mag-alala pagkat,
Aamin din ako
Mula ng ating hiwalayan
Ilang beses ka bang nagpalit ng kasintahan?
Hindi mo nga ba maintindihan
Kahit sinong babae ay hindi mapupunan
Refrain 2:
Ang puwang sa puso mo
Na pag-aari ko
'Wag ng pahirapan
Balikan mo na ako
(CHorUs)
Bridge:
Hindi na dapat pagtalunan pa
Kung ikaw man o ako ang mali,
ay bahala na
Araw-araw inaantay kita
Na dumating ng biglaan
at umamin na
(chorus)
Wrote this December 7, 2008. I couldn't tell if it's a poem but am sure it's a reflection of what I was feeling that very moment. My yesteryears was quite full of emotions. Haha!
Answers pls..
do you ever spend a second thinking of me?
do you even throw a glimpse my way?
do you listen when i speak a word?
do you miss the way i giggle?
do you enjoy acting like a stranger to me?
do you feel my warmth when I'm nervous?
do you still feel it when I'm in pain?
do you rejoice in my victory?
do you really wish I'm not around?
do you know your irresistible?
how could you pass my way pretending not to see me?
how could you sing songs of us without feeling any at all?
how could you look at me with blindness?
how could you talk to me with emptiness?
how easy am i forget?
how could you be so selfish of your friendship?
how sure are you that you did the best for me?
how sure are you you've forgotten me?
how do you get through the lonely nights?
how come I'm seeing different faces but it's yours that haunts me at night?
why do you have to get so close and rush to let go?
why have you make me believe it's forever?
why does the air gets cold when your around?
why can't we start again not doing the same mistakes?
why does it always feel like you're the one?
why can't i find someone better than you?
why do you push me enough just not to reach you?
why did you changed your mind so fast?
why does few years ago seem to feel like yesterday?
why can't you just tell me the truth?
when will be the perfect time?
when will your voice ever address to me?
when will i ever haunt you in your dreams?
when can i call you the same way as before?
when would you realize you're missing me too?
when would you ever care to stare at me?
when would you regret the misery you've cause me?
when will we ever quit playing hide and seek?
when will i forget your face?
when will you remember mine?
